Ok, yeah, this one gets kind of personal. But I feel the need to express my frustration with my OBGYN and my dislike for hormonal birth control.
First off, I would like to say that YOU are entitled to your body more than anyone else. YOU know your body more than anyone else. If ANYONE tries to tell you that they know what’s best for your body, you need to agree wholeheartedly.
My cycle is normally 25-27 days. Sometimes it might come in a day early, but those are usually my highly stressed-out months. Yes…I have never missed a period because of stress. Stress has ALWAYS made my period start early. And I can’t hate on it, because I always feel MUCH better after my period comes. It’s like my body knows that time-of-the-month chills me out or something. I don’t know the science, I only know how my body works.
Well, a few months back (March to be precise) my cycle did some very funny things. My period was a whole two weeks late!! The ONLY TIME my period has been late was when I got pregnant with Isla. I didn’t think there was any way I could be pregnant, but I took a test anyways. I took a lot of tests. And near my two week late mark, I got a positive. I freaked out in disbelief, but I suppose anything could be possible, but I was so certain I couldn’t be.
Mother was scared for me because I had surgery about a year ago from then for cervical cancer (it ended up being benign, thank GOD). She wanted me to get checked just in case something was wrong. I don’t know what can cause a positive on a test besides pregnancy, so I called my OBGYN. The one I have been going to for over 2 years now. Not by choice, but because they are the only ones in our city that takes good ol’ medicaid.
When she finally sees me, I explain how I got a positive pregnancy test (which I had taken a picture of and was ready to flash in their faces super fast if need be), how I had been super tired (taking naps -outa character for me), my breast had been a little sensitive, and nausea had been kicking my butt. Gosh, I felt pregnant.
“Well, our pregnancy test came back negative.”
Ok…………..and? Do you think I’m lying (I’m about to take this picture out!)?
That was all they said to me. They took some samples of me to test for infections (as per usual with check ups) and then we talked. I tell her I’m slightly freaked out because I’m not ready for another kid, and how there was no way I could even be pregnant, considering. All she says to me is that she can give me birth control. WTF?
[[Now, as a note, I would like to mention how I told her MANY times how I am very uninterested in birth control, especially the hormonal kind. I was on it for a majority of my teenage life and after I finally got of it, when I was 20, I started feeling a million times better than I ever had. Plus, I’m Catholic now, and it’s against my religious code. She told me about the non-hormonal copper IUD. I told her I wasn’t very interested because I had a friend who legit got pregnant with that, and I had heard a lot of horror stories about it connecting to the uterus wall, or something horrible like that, anyways.
But most importantly, I NEVER asked about birth control. I’m 26. I know about the process, and if I did get pregnant, I can 100% handle it. I did it once at 22, I can do it again. I’m older and wiser and have had legit practice. I only went in there for check ups. And never once did I mention my period being unpredictable (because it wasn’t).]]
She says “Well, you have irregular periods.” HUH? No, I don’t. “And being on birth control will help regulate your cycles.”
My legit response was, “My periods are pretty consistent and regular.”
She just shrugged at me.
In my head, I be like this —> Did I mention that I got a positive pregnancy test? Shouldn’t you be looking to make sure I’m not miscarrying or got cancer or hormone issues?
She goes on to preach about birth control in a condescending manor, as if I’m 15, and how it will really help with my irregular periods. Did she not even hear me say my periods are regular? This lady has been practically shoving BC down my throat for my last few visits. I was fired up, but being that I’m shy and don’t like to express my feelings, I just said sure. And she prescribed me a low dose of hormonal pills with a very satisfied look. I wonder if she gets commission for passing out BC prescriptions. Hmmm.
Ok. So I told Daniel about how the OBGYN said everything looked normal and fine and that I would begin these dang pills. Oh, and like 3 days later my period finally arrived and was HORRIBLE.
Eventually, I met with my general practitioner for an update on my anxiety. She knew about my cycle issue, and asked how that all went. I told her about the whole incident and how it left me feeling very defeated. She encouraged me to get off the pill and that she was shocked that the OBGYN pushed BC on me so heavily. I told her I would try and see if it worked out.
It’s now October. Wanna know how I feel on a low dosage of hormones?
I’ve been bloated for 2 months. This is the only negative symptom I have noticed. But there haven’t been any positive ones, except I don’t have to keep up with the calendar to know when aunt flow is coming. But being bloated is enough to make me hate it. I actually enjoyed my pants fitting.
Needless to say, I will be stopping my BC after this pack, and I refuse to go back to the OBGYN until I get on some good insurance.
Below are pictures of the home pregnancy test that came back positive.
One thought on “A story of why I will no longer go to the OBGYN while on medicaid”
Oh I’m so sorry! I too get mad in my head but tend to say nothing to avoid conflict… but one being positive probably meant a chemical pregnancy which means embryo probably tried to implant and didn’t have enough DNA to stay attached (I’ve had too many miscarraiges and know way to much about it) but they say tests are more likely to give you a false negative than a false positive! Hugs I hate hate hate BC it makes me feel so sick!
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