Happy Father’s Day

Fathers day is a weird one this year! Daniel had been a father figure for Isla for so long that it felt weird not getting him something. So Isla and I picked out a “Thank You” card so it wouldn’t be too weird.

I bought the ingredients for Isla to make her daddy his favorite pie. He got a Star Wars card.

My dad got the coolest card. It was a marvel card. He got an old unopened DC comic that Daniel found for him. He really liked it!!

Mass was nice too.

Happy Fathers day to all!!

Diary Entry: De-cluttering!

My desk had gotten so bad! I have so many projects I get started on, and then I end up getting lost in the mess! I also have a problem with keeping pencils and pens, and then buying more….

I finally threw a lot away, put what needed to go into my backpack in a school bag in the drawer, and all the not yet sharpened pencils together in another bag. So, I have a lot less in my drawer as well. I put my library books in my room on my nightstand. Organized the inside of my desk, And while there’s a lot more I would like to do to clean and organize it, this will do for now. It’s like truly more fresh now!

(In the pictures, the inside of my desk and drawer don’t look that great, but honestly, it’s a lot more organized and WAY less junk. I put my slime making stuff in the desk too. I would like to maybe add a shelf in there above the binders. I wonder how possible that is. We need more storage in general. But we have very little money.)

I also cleaned out my nightstand in my room and got rid of a lot in there. I feel like I can breathe! I really don’t like clutter. Yet, I let it accumulate. And having such a small apartment makes it a lot easier for clutter to happen.

So here is how it turned out!

Bridget and I will probably go today to get a frame for the puzzle under my laptop. If we have the money for. I’m tired of it being there. Then we have to figure out where we want to hang it up. I think in the dinning area would be cute.

Diary Entry: Summer Evenings Being a Mom

What I love about this summer is being a mom. I can do the fun summer things, like making lemonade, cutting up watermelon, and finding fun educational things Isla hates/loves.

Isla is currently napping. She went down quite late this evening because she spent time with Nathan before he went to work today. It was a great opportunity for me to get my booty to the grocery store. I don’t mind going to the store, but it wasn’t really something I wanted to do in my 3 hour free time. Isla has been a handful lately. I don’t know what it is. She acts like she owns the adults in her life. I’m sure it’s typical behavior for a 4 year old, but it certainly drives my patience.

When Nathan got her today, she screamed and cried for at least 30 minutes because I made her wear a pair of blue pants. Her outfit is so cute. She just hates having no control over her fashion. I let her dress how she wants sometimes, but she doesn’t get that weather plays a huge role in what we wear. Teaching her has been hell. I finally put all her winter clothes in a box at the top of the closet. Now we’re trying to teach her how to look presentable (which may cause some debates).

I’m really thinking about giving her less of a wardrobe to choose from. Like 4 shorts, 4 pants, 4 shirts and 4 dresses. But then I won’t need her chest of drawers anymore. That’s ok. Minimalism is like a breath of fresh air when it comes to making choices and not feeling so overwhelmed. -I need to minimalise my closet some as well.

I’m also thinking about getting rid of a ton of her toys. She barely plays with toys. She likes to twirl and dance about in costumes more. If she plays with toys, she really only plays with her doll houses and stuffed animals or wants to read books with me. Oh, and cash registers. She loves making people pay for things!

She loves her iPad, and I love letting her play on it. It has taught her a lot. But I don’t like her being on the thing or watching stuff all day. So I’ve been taking those things away from her. She thought at first that she was being punished. I’ve told her that it’s not good to be on screens all day, and that she needs to play with her toys and use her imagination. She has caught on decently, but when she gets tired of playing and wants to watch TV, she starts to get antsy and moody. A true addiction. It’s my fault. Some summer days are just too damn hot to go outside and play. So we stay in, bored, watching Netflix. I’ve tried to break the habit by taking us to Books-a-Million for a couple of hours before nap time, and then visiting friends afterwards.

She used to watch a movie (Puss in Boots) every night while in bed to fall asleep to, while with her lamp on. I’ve cut both those out now too. She gets one day a week to watch a movie in bed, and only Christmas lights around her dresser and her Christmas light up angel (one of those fiber optic things) . She transitioned well. I was very proud!

Anyways, this was a mommy blog! Thanks for reading!!

Diary Entry: Kayaking!

I never thought I would see so many creatures as I have in the past week! I went kayaking with my friends. I was a kayak newbie, so I was a little nervous, but once I found how easy it was to go, I fell in love with it.

The first journey, we found a poor baby bird who looked almost dead in the water. I wouldn’t have thought it to be alive if I hadn’t seen it gasp for air. I had us quickly scoop it and placed it in the back of one of our kayaks.

We ventured on down stream…or up stream? It’s hard to tell with the bayous. Under the bridges I saw where birds had made giant nests. They looked so cool! The looked like giant dirt diver nests. There were ducks along the shore, quacking noisily together, and a few turtles. Then another bird in the water, its parents trying to get it out. We saved that one too. It was a baby crow.

The weather was nice that day. It was cloudy, drizzling every now and again, so the heat was super bearable. And the birds, well, we made friends with them. I kinda wanted to keep the baby crow because those things could make good pets, but I saw the mites. So I mostly held onto the little finch…if that’s the type of bird that is…he had the roughest life on sea and looked younger than the crow. Either that or crow babies are stronger. I have no idea, I’m not a bird expert.

We went kayaking again a couple days later. We went to Black Bayou. This is a national wildlife reserve, so it’s more of a swamp. This is where all the critters were. The spiders and the alligators. An eagle’s nest (did you know their nests are as big as a queen sized bed?) and many other birds. I even saw a blue heron, they recently went from endangered to the threatened list…if I’m remembering correctly.

I don’t have pictures of this trip. I didn’t want to get my phone out. But Bridget did!

Black Bayou is filled with lily pads and cypress trees. It was stunning to be in the middle of it all. The eagle’s nest is the end of the boat trail. Before we went back we all decided to tie ourselves together. It was so funny! I don’t know if it’s a normal thing to do, but I’m sure we looked quite amusing. We would play the Pirates of the Caribbean song (Daniel’s suggestion — genius!) when paddling fast. I hope someone saw and heard that…cause it made my day for sure.

As beautiful as the swamp was…I do not care to go back on those waters. Too much anxiety about capsizing among the gators and spiders.

Diary Entry: Spiders

I really don’t like when I go through random nights of nightmares and uncomfortable sleep. Daniel just bought my grandmother’s house…so now it’s his house….it feels weird to say it. We’re in the middle of doing some renovations and setting it up so he can finally move in. We packed up everything in his apartment. It’s a lofty flat, so everything is under his bed and the place is not well insulated from the outside world. In other words…SPIDERS EVERYWHERE!

OK, not everywhere, but my mind couldn’t help but think they were scurrying away from his grasp (I didn’t help because spiders) as he pulled things out from under the bed, waiting to crawl onto the blankets and attack us at our most vulnerable.

So, when all was said and done, I had spider nightmares all night! It didn’t help that the night before I saw a spider scurrying across my bed, and another chilling between my nightstand and the wall. I kept waking up slapping myself, scared spiders were on me. I’m still uneasy about sleeping in my bed.

And then we went kayaking at Black Bayou. Water spiders….EVERYWHERE. When we made it back to shore 2 hours later, our kayaks were covered in the creatures. Especially Daniel’s. His kayak had been swarmed by them. He is just so chill about them! HOW CAN HE BE SO CHILL ABOUT THEM?!

I hate spiders….

Photo by Rangarajan Ragunathan on Unsplash

Diary Entry: Isla is Going to Pre-K

Isla was accepted into pre-k. I’m a little worried about how much she should know. I’m sure she knows enough… but I remember how I struggled in school. I don’t want Isla to feel like I did.

I wasn’t a bad student, but I remember having a hard time understanding what I was being taught. I was mostly in my own head, and I didn’t spend enough time going over my lessons. It’s amazing that I was an honor-roll student. I practically guessed on tests.

I want to start teaching Isla over the summer. I want her to know how to count to 20 and say her ABC’s. Maybe even read a little. I don’t think I’m a great teacher though. I don’t know how some mothers homeschool. I would love to homeschool, but HOW!? And WHY?!

Isla can learn so much better at school. The only thing that really bothers me about sending her off…is sending her off on her own, with all those different kids to interact with and teachers to raise her academically. I didn’t think I would be the mom to be afraid of leaving my child at school…but the thought of her starting school makes me feel anxious.

Mom says she should ride the bus after school. But I don’t think I want her riding the bus for a long time. I want to make sure she’s in good hands. I saw too much bad on school buses. When I was in kindergarten, my bus driver treated me like crap. Strait up left me on the bus after school because I fell asleep. She also purposefully slammed the bus door into my nose and screamed at me for crying about it. I ended up tripping because of the pain and tears and busted my nose. I have a crocked nose…and I blame that day and that lady.

I was also bullied a lot on the bus, and I remember people bullying others. Especially the poor younger kids. And the bus drivers themselves were kinda mean.

It was a great day when I no longer had to ride the bus. The last 2 years of high school were bliss.

This has become a rant about school buses.

Anyways, I came up with a plan to start teaching Isla everyday of the week. And when Nathan’s off, spending an hour of our time together to sit Isla down to learn. Then have Daniel question her when he’s over. He’ll be like her tests. I suppose I will start this coming up Monday.

I don’t want to be too hard on her. I just want her to be prepared.

Gosh, I’m so nervous about it.