Pre-k and College

Isla started Pre-K this week. And I started the fall semester with her.

I guess it should be known that I got a job at the library. I’m very happy about it. Despite the low pay and what not, I’m making enough to be thoroughly satisfied for someone without a degree yet. I’m actually very happy with the pay, because they gave me a raise when they reinstated me!

I’m getting off topic, though. Shall we get back to the chaotic week? I mentioned work because this week has been the most hours I have received so far. Working 12-6. This is almost similar to one of my most hated shifts…the 11-7. I hate the 11-7 shift because you literally have no time to have a day. Well… 12-6 is fairly similar.

And when you have to get your kid to school by 7:55 and your not home till 8:30 and you need all your needs met before beginning school work…. it causes you to fall a bit behind. I get off at 6, pick Isla up, get home at 7, get her bathed and down by 8, and then I pass out around 9. See….no time! So I’ve been pretty dang stressed this week with trying to manage time.

I’m actually procrastinating while writing this blog. But I go in at 2 today, so I get a little more free time!

I have a lot of other things I want to talk about. Mostly mommy insecurities involving Pre-K. But I should really get back to my school work right this minute so I’m not freaking out this weekend when everything is due.

I’ll try to get on here Saturday and actually talk about things. I might make two posts! Try to.

Diary Entry: Summer Evenings Being a Mom

What I love about this summer is being a mom. I can do the fun summer things, like making lemonade, cutting up watermelon, and finding fun educational things Isla hates/loves.

Isla is currently napping. She went down quite late this evening because she spent time with Nathan before he went to work today. It was a great opportunity for me to get my booty to the grocery store. I don’t mind going to the store, but it wasn’t really something I wanted to do in my 3 hour free time. Isla has been a handful lately. I don’t know what it is. She acts like she owns the adults in her life. I’m sure it’s typical behavior for a 4 year old, but it certainly drives my patience.

When Nathan got her today, she screamed and cried for at least 30 minutes because I made her wear a pair of blue pants. Her outfit is so cute. She just hates having no control over her fashion. I let her dress how she wants sometimes, but she doesn’t get that weather plays a huge role in what we wear. Teaching her has been hell. I finally put all her winter clothes in a box at the top of the closet. Now we’re trying to teach her how to look presentable (which may cause some debates).

I’m really thinking about giving her less of a wardrobe to choose from. Like 4 shorts, 4 pants, 4 shirts and 4 dresses. But then I won’t need her chest of drawers anymore. That’s ok. Minimalism is like a breath of fresh air when it comes to making choices and not feeling so overwhelmed. -I need to minimalise my closet some as well.

I’m also thinking about getting rid of a ton of her toys. She barely plays with toys. She likes to twirl and dance about in costumes more. If she plays with toys, she really only plays with her doll houses and stuffed animals or wants to read books with me. Oh, and cash registers. She loves making people pay for things!

She loves her iPad, and I love letting her play on it. It has taught her a lot. But I don’t like her being on the thing or watching stuff all day. So I’ve been taking those things away from her. She thought at first that she was being punished. I’ve told her that it’s not good to be on screens all day, and that she needs to play with her toys and use her imagination. She has caught on decently, but when she gets tired of playing and wants to watch TV, she starts to get antsy and moody. A true addiction. It’s my fault. Some summer days are just too damn hot to go outside and play. So we stay in, bored, watching Netflix. I’ve tried to break the habit by taking us to Books-a-Million for a couple of hours before nap time, and then visiting friends afterwards.

She used to watch a movie (Puss in Boots) every night while in bed to fall asleep to, while with her lamp on. I’ve cut both those out now too. She gets one day a week to watch a movie in bed, and only Christmas lights around her dresser and her Christmas light up angel (one of those fiber optic things) . She transitioned well. I was very proud!

Anyways, this was a mommy blog! Thanks for reading!!

Diary Entry: Grown-Up

I think the hardest thing about being a single parent in college is having to rely on other people for income. The guilt that plays into that is dreadful.

There are so many part-time jobs out there, but a majority of them require evening shift workers. I’m hardly a fan. I don’t have a degree yet. But I’m older than most fast food and retail workers. Bottom line, anyways. Is it too much for me to want a normal adult job to support my child without leaving her in the hands of someone else? Of all hours of the day even…

She’s at daycare during the day…I don’t want to give her away for a few hours right after we get home.

I’m feeling the pressure of having to either live frugally for the next year until I get my associates, or leave Isla again. Why does school have to take up so much of my adult life? I feel like it has been so long. I don’t even feel half way there yet…